There is someone inside my head, 

 

It’s starting to crawl out. 

 

There is a fit coming into me. 

 

This is something I know about 

 

They said in therapy,  

 

that daily manifestations help 

 

However, how do you manifest? 

 

With a lack of imagination? 

 

I think I have found 

 

The answer to this question  

 

By not giving up and being arrogant 

 

About my problems and solutions  

 

There was a time when I 

 

Berated myself for being me 

 

There were days of confusion  

 

And nights of being someone else 

 

Then came a time of reckoning  

 

Where I had to be or not 

 

I had to choose myself or the one 

 

That was ready to be chosen for me 

 

So I sat in my misery 

 

And smiled in the mirror of tears 

 

And saw a person looking back 

 

Who had come from the future 

 

The future was the day of my death  

 

And the person asked me this: 

 

“Suppose you die right this moment”, 

 

“Would you be sad but content?” 

 

And my answer was no, 

 

Because I had so much to do! 

 

And so the person smiled and asked: 

 

“Then who is stopping you?” 

 

And the question circled in my brain, 

 

Making me sick yet happy inside, 

 

For it was I who was stopping myself, 

 

From getting and doing what was right. 

 

The what-ifs and buts were always there, 

 

And I knew they would be too, 

 

But to look back on a life worth lived 

 

Was a feeling out of the blue! 

 

And so, like sunshine on a cold day, 

 

This calm trickled over me, 

 

When I realized I could die one day, 

 

And made living worthy for me. 

 

So I think to do what your soul says, 

 

Is the hardest thing to do. 

 

But to do it right is also something, 

 

Very few can actually do. 

 

And once you get to it,  

 

The waves crash lighter, 

 

The howls of doubt feel foreboding, 

 

But it’s not scary… 

 

Just unfamiliar.  

 

And familiarity can be learned. 

 

After all, we’ve been doing it, 

 

Since we were born. 

 
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